Seeking Balance, Organization, and Freedom from Stress

This will be a short blog because it is past my bedtime.

     I have been doing a lot of thinking and soul searching, which I believe needs to be done before jumping into things. I have been slow going on a lot of my aspects of life right now, but in this case, I believe that slow and steady wins the race. I hope that the people who are helping me to succeed do not get too frustrated or irritated with my slow pace, but I really do feel inside that if I move slowly, I can get all of my thoughts and ideas in order and all of the wrinkles ironed.

     To have an orderly life, one must have organized and thought out plans. I am struggling with organizing my plans and my time. I am working on it. It takes three times to form a bad habit and twenty-one times to break it (and start a good habit in its place). I am definitely feeling the pain of this in many areas. I have seen success, however, even if they are baby steps. At least they are steps in the right direction.

     I have been thinking, and dreaming, about what can help me organize my thoughts, my feelings, and just get my head cleared out and in order. I have been experiencing an internal pull toward starting yoga and running. I am looking into the spiritual yoga because I believe that the meditation can help me with both my internal and external balances. I have also been reading that yoga helps naturally reduce cortisol levels, as well as help get you into shape, on which I am also working. I have been feeling an internal pull toward running as well; so much so that I have had a few dreams about running. This is very unusual for me because I hate running, at least I used to. Maybe my body and mind is trying to tell me something. Maybe my taste for running has changed just as people's taste buds change. In my dreams, I am never running away or toward anything. I am simply running outdoors, on a beautiful mid Spring day. I feel free and at peace. My mind is clear and I feel happier than ever. If this is not a smack in the face with a sign, then I don't know what is.

My short blog has become a medium one instead. Goodnight.